Head vs heart. A super cliché beginning to a post for something so serious that many of us battle in our day-to-day lives. Many of us battle inner demons that make us question our every waking move. Head demons and heart demons are two very different things. At least to me they are. 

Head demons are the logic behind my decisions. Does this make sense? Is this the best thing for me? Is there a better way? Are just some of the questions that flow through my mind when trying to make a decision. Heart demons are where those darn emotions lye (damn you emotions!). It's these emotions that sit there and toy with your head from making that logical decision. It's these emotions that make the most simplest of decisions the hardest.  

You're reading this now and probably thinking why I've put an image of Cher from Clueless as the header of this blog post. Here's why: 1. I'm a clueless wreck sometimes; 2. Clueless is one of my all time favourite cult classic movies; and 3. There is a point within the film where Cher is toying between her head and her heart when it comes to what she wants out of her relationship with Josh, her ex step-brother. (It's weird when you try to explain it; but in the movie it becomes somewhat cute and acceptable - but that's not the point). The point is that in about 80% of life situations, you have to decide between your head and your heart. But which should you listen to? 

I hate that. I hate the fact that I have to make a decision. Why can't it be like those el de paso taco commercials where the hardest decision is whether to have soft or hard tacos; and even then they decide to have both. Without getting into the finer details, I currently find myself in a situation where I have to pick between two things. Both with positives and negatives. If I choose yes, the benefits could be astronomical and I could be the happiest that I've ever been, however if this "yes" decision goes sour I stand to loose some of the most important people in my life. If I decide "no" I don't stand to loose much. Things will just flow through like normal with a little bit of awkwardness; oh and the lingering elephant in the room. No consequences but that of course means no great benefit, I won't loose anyone. At least, I don't think I will? I might just loose my sanity over this though...

Take that last paragraph however you want. Emotions really suck sometimes...